My dis-ease has a built-in forgetter and an ego that says that everything really is under my control. I'm striving for a better memory and for true humility. 

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I attempted to use lust to fill the God-sized hole in my life. But I have found that is lust is an illusion that cannot ever fill that hole. ...

Step Seven has always been quick - but not easy.

If I have done Step Six and become entirely ready to have...

It has been three months since I slipped after four years.  Prior to that, I slipped after six years.  I hated admitting another slip.  I hated resetting my sobriety date.  I felt ashamed and useless; with all...