I frequently used fear to justify acting out.  Masturbation produced temporary tranquility.  Afterwards I was even more afraid, but for the moment it was a nice numb feeling. ...

Besides sexaholism, I suffer from chronic uniqueness.  Symptoms include a sense of my own importance, entitlement and a feeling of isolation from others, usually accompanied by self-pity. ...

It's hard to believe that sex is optional.  Before SA, I would think about ending my life, but never about ending my acting out.  Life was optional but sex was a necessity.

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I'm picturing a memory from a few years ago.  I awake to a beautiful spring Saturday morning, birds chirping, sun shining.  Lying blissfully in bed with a...

From the time I was a kid I never liked teams.  I didn't want to lose because some teammate screwed up.  If I played my part perfectly, but my teammate dropped the ball, why should I lose because of him?  Or what...

I suffer from a disease that a sizable portion of the world doesn't believe in.  (Honestly I didn't believe in it myself until three years ago.)  The difference between a man who claims he suffers from sex...

I've been sorting through the reasons I used to act out so much and I've come to the conclusion it was because it felt good.  In fact, I used to act out sometimes four times a day because it felt really good.  I...