A member shared that he always had a knot in his stomach - as big as a fist. He acted out with sex or alcohol every day to make it go away, but it would always come back. And the more he tried to get rid of it, through his years of acting-out, the quicker it would come back.
In recovery, he found that he could just let the knot be, feel it and wait until it went away. He noticed that it would go away after a few hours or a day without him doing anything.
"And if I made a phone call it would go away quicker; and if I prayed it would go away even quicker. Now it only comes once every two months. Acting out made the knot go away, but not acting out made the knot quit coming!”