Sexaholics Anonymous Has Given Me A New Life
Before coming to Sexaholics Anonymous, my life was completely out of control. It was more out of control within me than outside of me (though that was pretty disorderly as well). I was a functional sexaholic, able to hold down a job and keep up appearances--for the most part. Sometimes my disease would rear its ugly head, but for the most part, things probably looked to the unsuspecting eye as if things were quite normal. But that was not so. There was no limit to the lengths I was willing to go for my disease. There were times that I didn't care whether I lived or not, and my behaviors sometimes were so risky that they reflected that.
But apart from my outward my behaviors, I was always lost inside of myself, as the Sexaholics Anonymous “White Book” mentions.
I was always out of control within myself, a slave to my emotional mood swings (which happened at the drop of a hat), and the self-condemnation, guilt, and shame were destroying me. Thanks be to the God of my understanding and others who have loved me that I made it to SA recovery. I don't know where I would be today if God as I understand Him and others did not reach out to me. I am amazed about how different life is today with my fellows in Sexaholics Anonymous--participating in the Solution of the Steps, the meetings, and the fellowship.
SA has given me a totally new, different, and better way to live.
SA has given me a life without shame or guilt, and a life of healthy relationships. Through the SA fellowship, I have found emotional control, healthy boundaries, positive relations with others, a positive relation with my Higher Power, joy, and freedom. Because of SA, I now get to experience things I never knew about, one day at a time--so long as I am willing to humbly receive the gift of sobriety.
I am so grateful to be a member of Sexaholics Anonymous. I get to not only live life, I get to enjoy it. I want to keep living this life for as long as my Higher Power allows me to live on this earth, one day at a time.
Wishing all a serene and peaceful sober day.