Hungry, Angry, Lonely, Tired Brings Me To A Halt
Today I experienced HALT (Hungry, Angry, Lonely, or Tired). I came face-to-face with some of my long-time character defects: laziness, procrastination, perfectionism, and pride. So I shared my struggles with some of my Sexaholics Anonymous friends, and I surrendered my defects (at least in one moment) to God. Today I don't have to be perfect. And thanks be to God that I can be at an SA meeting, where I can share my struggles with my fellows.
Working the SA program has been hard for me, but life is much better now than it used to be. In the past, I would isolate myself from the world when I struggled. Then the isolation would drive me to sexual acting out, and then I would isolate further, and so on. But because of my fellows in SA, I no longer need to isolate. Seeking fellowship from my SA friends is much better than isolating
Today I was tempted to fantasize about "the old life." That is not okay for me today, because that life was no life at all. It looked dazzling at the time, yet in reality, my past was filled with absolute destruction. Life is much better for me when I stay connected, one day at a time, with my fellows in Sexaholics Anonymous. It’s better for me to go to meetings, work the Steps, serve others, connect with God and others, and practice good self-care than to isolate. Because days like today--the days when I feel a bit overwhelmed by my temptations or defects--will come and go, but tomorrow is a new day full of possibilities.
My Life is Much Better Because of Working the Sexaholics Anonymous Program
In my old life, a day like today would turn into not just one difficult day but several days, and who knows where it would end. In the past my behaviors got progressively addictive and destructive for me, but because of the fellowship of SA my life is so much better now.