One bad choice away from relapse

Recently I was talking with my wife about some things I had experienced whilst working the program. I knew, based on my prior history with slipping, that I was in no position to try to fool myself, her or anyone else into believing that I could "never go back out there".
 
Instead, I simply said, "I'm only ever one bad choice away from a relapse." And it doesn't even have to be a big, obvious choice. One subtle little choice, and I can be on the road to a relapse. And, because I'm a sexaholic, that choice will be an "easy" one to make. That's been my past experience many, many times, and I don't doubt it can happen again.
 
The old-timers remind me that all I have is a "daily reprieve contingent on the maintenance of my spiritual condition." Here is the quotation:

"It is easy to let up on the spiritual program of action and rest on our laurels. We are headed for trouble if we do, for [lust] is a subtle foe. We are not cured of [sexaholism]. What we really have is a daily reprieve contingent on the maintenance of our spiritual condition." (AABB, p. 85)

So what really matters in the end is my "spiritual condition." I must continue to ask myself, "Am I currently in right relationship with God and others?" (cf. Step 10)  "Am I growing spiritually in conscious connection with God?" (cf. Step 11)  "Am I trying to help others and sharing about who I really am and the story of what God is doing to change me?" (cf. Step 12)

But, had I not worked the first nine Steps of the program with a sponsor, I would never have known what the last three even meant, let alone do them.
 
If I'm continually in right connection with a "loving God" that "could and would if He were sought", relapse simply won't happen. But, if I walk away from that connection and start, once again, to "rest on my laurels", then that "one bad choice" has already been made and I'm on my way to a relapse - because I'm on my own.