Before entering the SA program and working the 12 Steps, I had constructed a whole parallel universe of lies. One problem, however, was trying to remember what set of lies I had presented to which person. What a tremendous mental burden I gave myself in that pursuit of "looking good." Eventually that whole other universe collapsed and the truth came out about my addictive actions.
While it hurt for a while to be exposed without my phoney cover story, the program taught me that it is Ok to be me, AS IS. My memory is not as good now as it used to be. I don't know if that is from lack of practice or advancing age, but I'm grateful either way that I don't have to remember much more than recycling day and SA meeting time.