I really don't remember signing up for this addiction, and if I did, I certainly did not read the fine print. Had I done so, I would have never enlisted. When I first joined Sexaholics Anonymous, I spent a lot of time focusing on how I got here. Finally, my sponsor mentioned to me that, even if I could figure it out, I wouldn't be able to go back in time to change it. This gave me the wisdom to know the difference. I cannot change my past, but I can change my attitude in the present.
Knowing about my past is good and interesting, but recovery is in the NOW for me. God does not exist in the past or future - He only exists NOW. I try to learn from my past and then let it go. It's all right for me to look at the past. I just don't stare. As the Big Book promises on page 83. We will not regret the past nor wish to shut the door on it.