It is day 16 for me today. As the morning wore on, I found my mind wandering more and more...struggling...having to work harder to "bounce" my mind away from lust and onto something...anything else.
By lunch time I was fed up. I got up from my desk, went outside, and walked around the building and parking lot. I felt the sun on my face and the warm breeze blowing. It was a good feeling. I'm thankful that I was given a moment to enjoy the sun and its warmth.
I prayed a simple short prayer. I admitted to my Higher Power that I was struggling and I begged for help. I confessed that I know He will put a path in front of me and I prayed for the courage to take that path and to accept His guidance. Then I prayed for a few friends and family that I know that are struggling today.
And about 20 minutes later, I suddenly realized that I had been thinking about other things and not lust. I had been given relief. I had been able to surrender that and God took it away from me.
I'm thankful for a more peaceful afternoon.