The gift of desperate willingness

My addiction took time from my family, my job, my sleep. It took money out of my pocket.  I would do anything for my drug. When I learned that there was true hope to get and stay sober, I took time from my family, my job, my sleep. I took money out of my pocket. I did anything for sobriety.

I can't stay sober for a week or a month at a time. It's too difficult.  I quickly get overwhelmed and start to lose hope. One day at a time, sometimes one hour or minute at a time is all I can focus on.

It has at times taken all my energy to pick up a phone and call someone. At times I have risked exposing my disease to get to a meeting. All of the tools that I used to get my drug have been useful for my sobriety. In a way I was in training for sobriety.

Why am I sober? God gave me the gift of desperate willingness to do whatever it took, each day for over 4 years now. God keeps me sober.