Choosing life

Yes, there is a solution, but to choose life is still not an easy decision to make. I'm not going to stab myself and maybe I’m not going to act out sexually right now but, somewhere down the line, I'm going to do it. My acting out actually began six months earlier - when I failed to establish and maintain my spiritual condition. The actual act is very small compared to the whole peculiar mental twist that leads up to that act. I simply failed to maintain a fit spiritual condition.

What do I do to maintain my spiritual condition? I deal with my self-centredness, my dishonesty, my resentment and my fear. Those are the seminal character defects outlined in Chapter 5 and addressed in the 4th and 10th Steps. I must deal with those or I will act out. The whole 12 Step process is dealing with those defects today.