One object is to disclose damaged or unsalable goods, to get rid of them promptly and without regret. (AA 64)
I have been sober for four years and becoming increasingly aware of how much more house cleaning I need do on my defects of character. Making amends to my husband at least once a day is no longer enough for me. I also need to change the actions and thinking that lead me to harm him. When I find myself wanting to keep secrets from others, I realize I need to work on being honest to keep me on the path of recovery.
It took years for me to get to where I am. Through working the Steps, I am learning to be more understanding of myself and that is giving me peace of mind. The more I accept myself and actively practice the opposite behaviors of my defects, the better I can give to my family. I have good things to give and with God’s power, I can keep purging the old ways that block me from being the best I can possibly be. To be sober is a good thing; to change my defects into positives is even better.
I pray, God, sustain me with the strength to persevere in digging, identifying, admitting, and disposing of my unsalable inventory.