Batch 31 #305
Came to believe that a Power greater than ourselves could restore us to sanity. (Step 2 SA)
When in my addiction, my intellect will not keep me sober. Nothing on an intellectual level will
stop my lusting or acting out. Thinking inside my head, weighing sobriety against acting out,
acting out wins. I know my conduct is wrong and my mind believes I should stop, but lust wins.
Part of my giving in to lust is that, on an intellectual level, I am unsure a Higher Power would
restore me to sanity
With my Higher Power speaking to me through my fellow SAs as I worked the Steps, I learned
that lust uses my intellect to divert me from a real connection with my Higher Power, others,
and myself. Lust, a temporary balm for my pain, lies to me by giving too much weight to my
Yet, I can experience sobriety. When I live in the present, I feel a connection between myself and
others, a deep commonality with those around me, and view them as people, not just as a means
I do not get sobriety, sobriety gets me. It shows me that as lust decreases, my wholeness as a
person increases. In my recovery, I feel that a power greater than myself helping me back to
sanity. It took years to get to this point and I want to keep growing in this direction.
Of doubt and Faith and things I have never known – God, restore help me to the sanity of being
happy, joyous, and free.