Intimacy

Expiration Date

There’s no feeling in the world like Lust.  It’s like being hit by lightning, blended into a milkshake, and fired from a cannon.  It makes me feel alive by making me feel like it’s killing me.  It resembles bungee...

My reaction to triggers

Just the other day, I went to a restaurant that I frequent, expecting it to be a safe place.  So point 1, I was avoiding the near occasion of sin, as my mother used to say.  I didn't deliberatedly go to...

Wanting intimacy not sex

As a man, I had no idea that what I wanted was intimacy rather than sex. I thought sex was the royal road to intimacy but it turned out to be the road to disappointment. But in recovery, attending many meetings...

Unconditional surrender

The crazy thing about unconditional surrender is that I don't get to specify the terms.  When I finally admitted at age 51 that I was 100% hopeless (Alcoholics Anonymous page 43) I began to surrender.  There was...

Finding my true self

The SA White Book tells me "The crucial change in attitude began when we admitted we were powerless (over lust)" pg 204. On page 40 I read "Because (I) live inside (my) attitudes (I) don't see them; (I) see only...

Not wanting to be leered at

I was exposed to pornography at an early age and lived in a household where pretty and submissive were rewarded with love and attention. I imagined that looking like a sex object would lead me to a real connection...

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