SA and the Steps were the beginning of a new life for me.  The Steps cleared the way so that I could learn to live without acting out.  After the insanity of my acting out stopped, then my work was in learning how to function normally in the world.  I was sober, but living a constricted life behind the walls that I had constructed to make me feel safe.  I wanted to walk free in the world, secure in my sobriety.  For me, that took therapy as well as meetings.  Today, I am amazed at the things I can do, the situations that I can handle with ease, and the clarity of my vision.  Lust rarely shows up in my life anymore and it would be easy for me to say that I’m “cured”-- if I did not have reminders from newcomers.  

Every time I read or listen to a newcomer share his or her pain and powerlessness over acting out, I have a clear view of my former way of living.  I see my former self in almost every story, and I am reminded that I am only in remission as long as I take care of myself.  Today, I feel grateful for every newcomer that enters our program.  I need them as much as they need me.

Grateful, Sober, Sexaholic Woman. Thanks for letting me share.